She prays to God to be able to fall in love again
To be able to feel all excited when she meet new people again.
To be able to "flirt" so she won't be judge as cold again.
There were times when she think about why she's not "flirty"
How's exactly to be flirty? Does she need to be flirty?
Is it why she often judge as cold hearted? because she's not flirty?
She keeps thinking why she doesn't like to flirt.
Since when she stop to be flirty? What makes her stop?
Or did she even used to be flirty back then? Maybe she didn't.
Or maybe she's tired, She's being skeptical, because it'll be useless.
She doesn't want to bet for another unsure relationship again. She's get sick of it.
Please, don't think bad about her. There are times when suddenly she love to be open and bubbly. It just getting less and less often.
She remembered a time in her past,
There were her father's students came to their house. She got excited all of sudden. She was jumpy and giggly, looking for attention. Out of no where her mother side eyed her and said "What are you doing? You're such a flirt!". She stopped and stunned, "did I do something wrong? Was that a mistake being excited to meet new people?" she talked to her self.
Did her childhood bad memories affect her unconsciously She became this cold right now?
Oh boy, Oh boy.
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