Grief

It's Mom's Bday today and the citizen made a party for our city soccer club, It was full of joy and happiness day. Then suddenly at 07:52 pm my mom's phone rang. A voice in the other side said something with uneasy voice. My mom repeated her saying “Mom passed away??”.
My grandma just gone.

My feeling right now is really mixed.
Joy - Happy - Curious - Worry - Sad - Condolence - Affected - Disaponted

For more than 5 years, I never knew what happened in my other family side. For more than 5 years I lived like I only have one side family. For more than 5 years there is a big gap between us. Everybody tried to fix it but one. He has closed his heart. He doesnt want to know what happened anymore. He cut the line.

And today in grandma's grief, everybody gathered around. Smiled to each other giving support. But one, he refused to come.

5 days ago Mom been told that Grandma didn't want to eat anymore. They had had brought her to the hospital. Mom and I went to the hospital right after we got the call. We saw Grandma laying with the I.V. on her wrist . “It's Vitamin” Mom said. That day she still recognized me, when I said my name she said “My Gra ndaughter is so grown up”. She dropped a tear, I wiped it cried. For all this years never been in touch, She was so old and weak. I remember that day she still insisted to take a bath even tough she couldn't even get up from bed. Aunty said Grandma didn't sleep for 3 days. She was struglling with her Lymphoma.

In the 3rd day Mom, Dad and I visited Grandma in the hospital. For more than 5 years never met, that day they met. A son and his mother. But that day, Grandma didn't able to talk anymore, She just moved her arms and mumbling. Made significant moves when Dad called her. Aunty said the day before when Grandma still able to talked, Grandma said that Grandpa (He passed away long time ago) called her to come but then He asked her to get back again because the house was not ready yet. Aunty said Grandma kept asking about the car to carry her, it has to be big because everybody wants to come in. Grandma kept asking to come “home”. To the place where she believed that her husband is for waiting her.
I got goosebumps when Aunty told that.

And today in her 5th day at the hospital, her condition was really bad. She couldn't move anymore, there was a lot of helping kit and wires on her body. Everyone on the room was giving attention to the monitor that showed her heart beat and breath. This afternoon when the convoi of motorcycles and cars were passed by outside the hospital, marching to the city center for the citizen party. All of my family gathered, spoke and prayed together . After everybody spoke to Grandma, asking apologies, giving apologies, told her that everything is done, that She can go now. Some minutes after her younger sister spoke to her. Grandma left.

About 15 years ago I still celebrate chrismast, chinese new year and Eid. There was christmast tree for christmast, Aangpao for chinese new year and “Ketupat” for Eid at Grandma house. I was grew up in such a multi-cultural families.

She was 80 years old when she passed away. My Grandma from my chinese family side. The one that showed respect to my belief. The one which I remember always watching her grandchildren played. Now She is gone forever. I hope my pray will always be with her.

Goodbye Grandma. Thank you very much..
With love
Me

100 Truth

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Seblak Basah (if you know what it is ;p)

2. Last phone call: it's yesterday from a recruitment firm

3. Last text message: Mom

4. Last song you listened to: Chandelier  by Sia

5. Last time you cried: about a month ago

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone: Yesh~

7. Been cheated on: more or less

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Never regret

9. Lost someone special: Well everyone is special. So I guess I did

10. Been depressed: Yeah, I ever did :p

11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12: I like pink unconciously

13: Yellow of Lemon

14: White

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend: Yeah, some.

16. Fallen out of love: Yes, I love Love.

17. Laughed until you cried: Hmmm.. Maybe yes.

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes. Feel grateful for that.

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yesh!

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Uh huh

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: like 65% of them

23. How many kids do you want: Three. 1 boy and 2 girls. or 1 girl and 2 boys.

24. Do you have any pets: a cat yesh~

25. Do you want to change your name: just change it a lil bit or cut my first name off.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: I went to a 24hours mart with my ex. Talked until morning and then went to work.

27. What time did you wake up today: 5:34 am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleephing zzZZzzZ...

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my new job and my husband (lol)

30. Last time you saw your Mother: 5 hours ago when i drove her to hospital

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I have ambitions in life (ambitionless-home-girl is da hoz ;p)

32. What are you listening to right now: computer machine

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: nope

34. Who's getting on your nerves right now: no one. I am as peace as my computer machine sounds

35. Most visited webpage: facebook because I play games 

36. Whats your real name: Nur Asfari Dewi

37. Nicknames: Dewi, Uwi, Nur

38. Relationship Status: in an open relationship

39. Zodiac sign: Sagitarius

40. Male or female: Female

41. Primary School: SDN Sukarasa 3,4,5

42. Secondary School: SMPN 12 Bandung

43. High school/college: SMUN 9 Bandung/POLBAN

44. Hair color: now it's ash brown

45. Long or short: shoulder long

46. Height: 164 cm 

47. Do you have a crush on someone: maybe

48. What do you like about yourself: I am optimist and I talk to animals and plants. Mohohohoho

49. Piercings: I think the piercings on my ears are gone now. Since I never wear any earings for years

50. Tattoos: no, altough sometimes I want to have one. Just the temporary one.

51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS:

52. First surgery: In Secondary School, it was my leg.

53. First piercing: when I was a baby.

54. First best friend: Prilla and Lucy

55. First sport you joined: Swimming

56. First vacation: I think it's the zoo in my city

58. First pair of trainers: I dont get it

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating: Seblak Basah (if you know it ;p)

60. Drinking: water with lime

61. I'm about to: feed my cat

62. Listening to: my computer machine

63. What time is it: 5:21 pm

YOUR FUTURE:

64. Want kids: Sure, I told ya

65. Get married: as soon as possible (i hope)

66. Career: A good housewife (see? how ambitiousless I am).

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: Eyes

68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

69. Shorter or taller: Taller

70. Older or Younger: Older 

71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice stomach

73. Sensitive or loud: Loud

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: Nah

77. Drank hard liquor: Yes I guess, well it's hard for meeeh

78. Lost glasses/contacts: contacts yes, I missplaced it

79. Sex on first date: R u kidding me? *smirk*

80. Broken someone's heart: Maybe, but I hope it's not really bad

82. Been arrested: nah

83. Turned someone down: yes

84. Cried when someone died: yes

85. Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: sometimes ;p

87. Miracles: yes

88. Love at first sight: yesss

89. Heaven: yes

90. Santa Claus: I just like the idea

91. Kiss on the first date: yes

92. Angels: well I am an angel ;p

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

95. Did you sing today: yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody: nope

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go: 4 January 2011

98. The moment you would choose to relive: high school and college life

99. Are you afraid of falling in love: of course not

100. Are you afraid of posting this as 100 truths: Nah~

Finally

Here comes again. Just passed through me.
The wind that came so hard and brought rains. Emptied me.
Brought away another pieces of me. Left holes. Another holes.
If you ask me how it feels. It feels just wrong. It's like the universe start to make a conspirations to not let it happens. Everything, Every little things just slowly vanished. Walked away. I couldn't grab it. I lost my breath chasing hard after it. But I never reached it. That's.... that is how it feels.
It's like something told me "It's not it"
again...


Don't worry.
Something is growing stronger inside me.
I know what's wrong. I know what I want. I know what I have to do.
Finally.



Bandung, 9 September 2014
Asfaridewi


P.S.
I left my heart in Haneda Airport, Tokyo, Japan that night. Let it remains warm and sweet.

You've got a letter (Part 2)

Dear Mr. B

Thank you for making me believe.

I should never did that. Tsk.

Lucky you I am a positive person, so I always try to think positive about people I love.

You know what? You such a JERK.

I did believe in your words. I thought you were really didn't want to be in any relationship that time because you were trying to focus on your personal ambitions and such. Since you said that you are still unsure about your self, your future and bla bla bla. Trying to convince me that it is your personal mistakes that made the relationship couldn't work anymore.........*sigh*

Dude, please... just tell me that I am not hot enough, not sexy enough, not "GAUL" enough for being your gf anymore since you are in a what-so-called "Anak gaul ibu kota" environment.

Pfffffffffttttttt.. Dude, really you are disapoint me. I even will not give a glance at you if you were that kind of boy when we first met. Really..

You know what, it has been almost 2 years since we really broke up. And I never feel this mad and hate somebody sooooo bad. Yes, I hate you! I hate you! See? I said it twice.

But well, it's okay. I am okay. It's also make me relieved to know that we are finished. It's just me being stupid for almost 2 years. I was like still believe that you just lost and will come back someday and you just don't have any idea of what you have done. You just that innocent boy that I dated since high school. I even never, never  doubt your story that you told me. Oh God, I am sooooo stupid.

Okay forget it.

Well, I'm getting a lil bit emotional here... just one last thing I want to say to you.

I will not curse you or your new girlfy or your future kids or whoever. 

But I won't wish you a good life too. Uh huh.

I just wish that I will get a better life afterwards. Much better. Without you. 

Thanks.

I am DONE.

Sincerely Me.

A Strange Relationship

This one is an unusual relationship.

I knew him in about the beginning of 2013, when I was a new-broken hearted. In sorrow I was searching for someone to talk to. I mean, I can't keep talking with my room's wall, can I ?

An international chatting application was the place where we "met" for the first time. I was impressed. As a rising sun country people, his english was not bad. It really helps us to communicate. He was kind of a cheerful man, since he alwas add "(^_-)" in every end of the words he said. Lol. That was my first impression of him. This one is already "A Man", in age we separates like about 12 years something. That is quite big gap, remembering the last one was on my age.

At the first time, He was interesting for me because he came from the country that I always dreamed about. I didn't feel anything special on him. We talked about ordinary stuff, like "What did you eat last night?" and such. We often lost of topic, because The Man is not a talkactive person and also I am a bad topic maker. So, we don't have so much to talk. But we keep in touch for about 2/3 months.

Until suddenly my focus turned on a guy at my office. Which I called "The Sun" because his smile is the brightest smile I ever see ;). It became really rare to talk to The Man. The last thing we talked about was when I asked him if I can still talk with him when he got a girlfriend. And his answer was "It will depend on my companion". That time i thought I have nothing to hope in this man, because it seems like he will find a girlfriend soon in his country and then forget me. Then i stopped contact him and he did not contact me too. It was about 1 month long we were not talking to each other.

Then suddenly, one night he greeted me. And I was like "Oh! Hi! It's been a long time not to talk with you" and then we talked about some more ordinary stuffs (like always). I asked him where has he been all this time, I thought he already has a girlfriend and decided to stop contacting me. And the funny thing was that he thought the same thing. He thought that I was already have a boyfriend. Then... he said that he likes me. I thought he likes me bcoz as a foreigner I was kind to him. But then he said that I have a charm as a woman and he likes it. Well, it's quite a shock for me bcoz I never expected so. Then we continue talked about more stuff this time. Like now I know that he is a work-a-holic (Yep, like almost all of the raising sun country people. They looooove to work.) But our time was matched quite well. I work in a raising sun company too, so my work hours also like monster. When I done with my work, so was him. Then we have a nice time to talk after work. Whereas sometimes he sleep at his office, over time working ......................zzzzz....

I love how we say greetings when we done from work and how the other answers. It  feels like home, warm.

I love how he kindly spends sometimes to answer my very-silly-random questions altough he is super duper busy.

I love how he thanks me for giving him supports. (And really, the rising sun country people is loooooooooooove to say thank you! He said a lot. Lol.) But I love it, I feel appreciated. I feel like someone gave me two tumbs up for a simple thing that I did. It's sweet <3

I love his palms shape, it quite similar like mine. Well I never see it directly before, it was trough photograps that he sent me ;)

I love the way he says I am cute. When I'm just being me. Without trying so hard to change anything in order to be perfect for him. He said I am cute when I died my hair green, with pimples on my face. He said I am cute with my veils. He said I am cute when I showed him my poodle-like-hair. He even said I am cute when I told him that I have to wear glasses because my eyes starts to very hopeless lately. I love the ways he show that he likes me in every look that I be.

This is a strange relationship (if I may call it relationship). But I am happy. I feel warm. I feel like I have warm hands to come back in every end of a tiring day. And somehow I feel that he feels the same. I am not sure, honestly. But I believe in this tiny little sprout that I put a faith on.

Me, 9 June 2013.

On my mobile phone note.

When there's a person you've never meet could hurt your heart 

and then you start to think..... "Am I making all this up by my self?"

then you start to think "what kind of love is this? that built up from thoughts and virtual feelings?"

then you start to think "What a pathetic creature I am"

Love can not be defined by words or thoughts. You can not hear it or see it or even taste it. The only way to know it is by feel it deep in your heart. 

Then you start to realize "Ah... so there is where it coming from... all this ticklish things".

Me, 26 November 2013.

On my mobile phone note.

Hmmm... it's already more that one year I walk on this strange relationship. A quite long time for me because I never planned it will be like this before. The feel is growing bigger and bigger each day, especialy after I met him directly last May. Saw him in person, talked to him, laughed with him, touched his real-warm-skin. Realized that his eyes is really small, lol. His palms are really similar with mine. Really. That time when I spend a day full with him, my impression was "It's him. The Man that I talk to everyday for more than a year. Nothing's different. It is the same man. The same warm feelings. Feeling of home."

You know. if now you ask me where I will bring this strange relationship... honestly I don't know yet. It's getting harder lately. Things get more serious and we face a huge obstacle now. But somehow, I want to make things work. I don't want to quit this time. I want to fight. I don't want to quit this time. Wish me luck.

Her Hair

I tried to make children's tale this time. I really want to make the illustration for this tory, but well.... my spirit to draw is not as strong as the spirit to write and read... So, if you want to make the illustration for this story or if you know someone who likes to make illustrations for free, I would love to see it. And please let me know if you have any comments about it. Enjoy and happy reading ;)

p.s. Sorry about the grammar :p

Her Hair

There was a girl with very long loooooong hair. No! She’s not Rapunzel, her name was Ariana. Not like Rapunzel who famous with her long beautiful blonde hair, Ariana’s was total black and curly. Her hair gave her trouble so many times. Like one morning when she was washing the dishes, she felt itchy on her head, she wanted to scratch it, but her hands was full of soap. The longer she resisted the itches the more horrible it felt. There was nothing she could do but scratched her head to the wall. Scratch, scratch!! It was very itchy. After scratching her head to the wall, the itches was gone, but when she wanted to continue washing the dishes, her hair stuck into the spider web on the wall. ARRRRRGH!! She shook her head left and right left and right, until she felt dizzy. But the spider web couldn’t be removed. Luckily the spider web was empty, can you imagine how it would be if there were a spider on the web? Yuck! Ariana hates spiders.

With no one could help her remove the spider web on her head she continued washing the dishes. No more than one minute she was washing, there was someone knocked the door, Knock! Knock! Ariana was confused, how can she open the door with the soap on her hands and the spider web on her hair. But someone at the door didn’t want to know what trouble she was in, he wanted the door to be opened as he kept knocking it. Knock! Knock! Knock! Then Ariana yelled to the person at the door, she asked him to come in because the door was unlocked. It was Damien who brought some Jell-O and bread from her mother who lived near the river. Damien was shocked when she saw Ariana, then he removed the spider web from Ariana’s hair and helped her finishing the dishes. She said thank you to Damien and she gave him the honey she’s got the other day from the wood as the change for the Jell-O and the bread.

Damien told Arina what makes he came, besides her mother’s order to give the jell-o and the bread to Ariana. He said that the man who sells meat at the market told him that he saw a golden deer inside the forest. He asked her to go to the forest with him, looking for the golden deer. Ariana agreed, since she loves to hunt. She brought her bow and arrow and Damien brought the sword he got from his father.

The sun almost totally set when they got to the heart of the forest, then suddenly Ariana saw something glowing passed by the big oak tree very fast. The glowing creature, I mean what things could move fast on the forest if it’s not a live creature, right? It’s suddenly gone to the bush behind the big oak tree. Ariana told Damien that she saw a glowing creature near the big oak tree. Damien run to the direction that Ariana pointed. And there it is! Damien saw it! The golden deer was drinking at the edge of the lake behind the bush. It was glowing very bright and reflected perfectly by the lake since the sky and the forest already dark. It was very strangely beautiful.

The golden deer was on the other side of the lake when Ariana took her arrow and ready to shoot it with her bow. But Damien stopped her; he said that it’s better if they catch the deer alive. The deer saw them and it run away to the deep forest. After lost the sight of their prey, they sat under the big oak tree and made a plan to catch the golden deer alive. After argued so many times, they decided to make a trap near the lake, in hope that the golden deer will come back to the lake.

It was very dark in the forest and very cold. Ariana covered her body with her long hair to make her warm when Damien started to fall asleep while waiting the golden deer to get into their trap. Actually, Ariana was afraid of dark. She was afraid that something bad will happen to her when she couldn’t see anything. The forest was very very quite that night, there just the owl Hoo-ing from far, Hoo..Hoo..Hoo…

It almost dawn when suddenly something jumped over Ariana, it was the golden deer that didn’t see Ariana was lying there. AAAAAHHHH!!! Ariana was shocked, she jumped and her hair was everywhere on the ground while she start to running around on her feet. Then suddenly SHRIEEK!! The golden dear fell on the ground, entangled by Ariana’s hair. Damien heard the noise, woke up and realize that something was going on. Damien saw Ariana was running like crazy in her shock and the golden dear hopelessly trapped by Ariana’s hair. Damien shoots a sleeping drug towards the golden deer, and in no time it stopped moving, the golden deer fell asleep. Damien stopped Ariana and told her that everything’s okay. Still in half shocked, Ariana looked at the golden deer and sigh. Confused but happy that they caught the golden deer.

They planned to give the golden deer to the king, so they could get some gold in return. But when Ariana looked at that glowing body with beautiful legs and horns, she felt sorry for the golden deer. And she could not imagine if it has to be caged in the castle for the rest of its life, separate away from its home and maybe its family. Ariana told Damien that she wanted to set the golden deer free, every creature had a right to live free like the others. No matter how strange or different it was.

Damien was in doubt to set the golden deer back free since it was very hard to catch, but then he agreed. They put the sleeping golden deer under the big oak tree and they leave, out from the forest back to their home. They didn’t have the golden deer, but they know that a beautiful creature lives well at the heart of the forest.

 

Perjalanan kemarin (Dream land, Japan); Side story.

I remember when I met an old couple back then in Ginza Sta. When I was carrying my super heavy lugage upstair, suddenly my lugage became more lighter, when I looked back, an Ojii-san helped me out while smiling. Then his wife, behind him said “よかったね" smiling also. After the Ojii-san helped me he just walked away left me in stunned. Almost forget to say “ありがとうございました!” I said out loud. They turned back again and smiled.

What a nice couple, I said in my heart. And until now, I never forget the way they looked. An Ojii-san in neat office suit with clean black shoes and his wife in nice broken white dress with flower on her right shoulder carrying a small hand bag.

The wife walked behind him and The husband  walked infront leading the way. Reminds me of the bear, when we walked around Tokyo as I said on the older post. He walked so fast, Yappari since he is a Japanese man, they are fast. He lead the way, I followed him with no doubt. In the train, He stood beside me, no, it's more like outside my standing zone making a man fence, separate me from the crowd. And in the public bus, he let me sit in the inside part, then he sit next to me, again blocking me from other people. Every little things that he did, all of them feels like protection. Now you know why I feel safe.

Nona Wimberlton

Sebuah rumah mewah di sebuah perumahan Real Estate pagi itu terlihat se sunyi biasanya. Tepat pukul 06:30, sebuah mobil sedan hitam keluar dari gerbang rumah mewah itu. Sedan itu melaju dengan kecepatan sedang di atas jalan raya kota Bandung dan sama sekali tidak menampakkan akan mempercepat laju nya, hanya bergerak dengan kecepatan sedang yang tetap. Di dalam sedan itu sesosok perempuan mungil tampak mengemudikan mobilnya dengan tenang dan sama sekali tidak tampak tergesa-gesa.

Rashha, perempuan mungil pengendara sedan hitam itu kini terlihat berlari kecil mengelilingi lapangan sekolahnya yang begitu luas. Lagi-lagi dia dihukum guru piket karena terlambat 15 menit setelah bel masuk pada pukul 06:30.

“Ini peringatan terakhir saya ya, Rashha Verlita Wimberlton. Saya sudah bosan menghukum kamu lari setiap pagi. Mulai besok, kalau kamu terlambat lagi, Saya akan memberikan hukuman yang lebih berat dari ini. Kamu mengerti?”.

Ocehan guru piket itu kembali terdengar. Ya, sebenarnya kata-kata itulah yang selalu keluar dari mulutnya setiap pagi, selalu begitu kata-katanya. Kenyataannya, hukuman lari lah yang selalu ditimpakan pada Rashha. Rashha sendiri sudah hafal betul kata-kata itu, sehingga ia mengangguk sebelum guru piket itu menyelesaikan ancaman nya dan lalu berlalu meninggalkan sang guru yang geleng-geleng antara jengkel dan tak tahu lagi harus berbuat apa.

Rashha memang dikenal dengan sikapnya yang cuek dan jarang sekali berbicara, apalagi untuk hal yang menurutnya tidak begitu penting, sehingga mengesankan kalau dia adalah anak yang dingin dan penyendiri. Di sekolah Rashha sama sekali tidak memiliki teman dekat, padahal anak-anak perempuan sebayanya, pada usia ini memiliki beberapa teman dekat wanita atau malah sekumpulan. Tapi Rashha tidak, orang yang berbicara padanya paling hanya sang guru piket, penjaga perpustakaan, guru dan teman se-bangku-nya, Diana. Itu pun jarang sekali, karena Diana adalah anak yang lemah dan sering sakit-sakitan sehingga ia jarang masuk sekolah.

Tapi dibalik sikap cuek nya, Rashha adalah seorang anak yang cerdas dan baik hati, tanpa diminta ia akan langsung membantu temannya yang sedang kesulitan, walaupun tetap tanpa berbicara apa-apa, sehingga mengakibatkan orang yang ditolong bingung dan tak tau harus bagaimana.

Pagi itu pada pelajaran pertama, Miss. Sara guru bahasa inggris, masuk dengan membawa serta seorang gadis cantik berambut lurus hitam berkilau yang tergerai hampir sampai ke pinggul nya. Ciri-ciri fisiknya mengatakan kalau dia jelas bukanlah orang Indonesia. Ternyata benar, Hinata seorang gadis keturunan Jepang yang hari itu datang untuk menjadi murid baru di kelas itu. Tanpa berkata apapun Rashha yang saat itu sedang menulis sesuatu di catatan kecilnya menengadahkan wajahnya yang mungil untuk sekedar melihat siapa gerangan yang akan menjadi anggota baru kelas ini. Dia harus menengadah karena badannya yang mungil itu duduk di bangku pojok paling belakang di kelas. Setelah sekilas melihat siapa yang datang dia kembali menunduk dan melanjutkan catatan nya.

Setelah dipersilakan duduk, Hinata langsung melirik bangku di sebelah Rashha yang kosong, Diana sudah hampir satu minggu absen dari sekolah. Ketika Hinata hendak duduk di bangku itu Rashha berkata sembari tetap memfokuskan pandangannya pada catatan kecilnya,

“Bangku itu sudah ada penghuninya, hanya saja hari ini dia tidak masuk”.

Begitu penjelasan Rashha pada Hinata, sebenarnya penjelasannya itu berbaur dengan penolakan yang ia per halus. Entah mengapa Rashha merasa enggan jika harus se dekat itu dengan Hinata, kalau nanti anak Jepang ini menjadi teman se bangku nya. Melihat Hinata yang berdiri diam disamping bangku Diana yang kosong, Miss. Sara bertanya,

“What is wrong Hinata?”

“Emm… nothing Miss, I just want to sit on this seat, but this girl said that it was occupied”

Hinata menjawab tanpa mengalihkan pandangannya pada Rashha yang masih tetap menunduk.

“Oh…I think you can sit there, because this morning I’ve got a letter from Diana’s mother and she said that her daughter will not come for school for about a month later. Diana has taken to New York to be take care of due to her illness. So I think that will be okay if you sit there, right Rashha?”

“Hmmm…., well yes of course”.

Rashha meng-iya-kan tanpa mengalihakan pandangannya, tetap menunduk. Kini memikirkan bagaimana keadaan Diana, apakah penyakitnya semakin parah sehingga ia harus dibawa ke luar negeri.

“Thank you, I hope we could be a nice tablemate”

Hinata berkata sembari duduk dan kemudian mengeluarkan buku pelajarannya. Jam pelajaran Bahasa Inggris pagi itu cukup mendatangkan keributan yang dibuat anak laki-laki di kelas itu yang tidak henti-hentinya bertanya pada Hinata di saat bagian pertanyaan bebas, yang tentu saja harus menggunakan bahasa inggris.

Dan pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu pun terus berlanjut sampai bel istirahat pertama berbunyi nyaring. Ketika anak-anak lain mulai berhamburan dan berlomba menuju kantin, Rashha yang biasa membawa bekal makanan dari rumah, pagi itu pun tidak beranjak dari bangku nya dan sudah akan mulai memakan bekalnya ketika tiba-tiba Hinata bertanya,

“Hai, aku Hinata Vincentia Takeda, siapa namamu?”

Sedikit terkejut karena pertanyaan yang mendadak saat ia hendak memakan bekalnya, Rashha pun menjawab singkat

“Rashha, Rashha Verlita Wimberlton”.

Ia pun melanjutkan suapan nya yang tadi tertunda.

“Hemm… ok, Rashha… sweet name”.

Hubungan Rashha dan Hinata tidak berangsur semakin dekat, karena sikap Rashha yang seakan menolak untuk terlalu dekat dengan Hinata. Mereka pun hanya berbicara ketika Hinata mengajukan pertanyaan pada Rashha. Selebihnya, mereka tidak pernah berbicara lebih banyak.

Tapi entah mengapa Rashha merasa kalau Hinata selalu memperhatikannya, baik itu ketika jam pelajaran, atau pun ketika ia beranjak dari bangku nya untuk sekedar ke toilet atau ke perpustakaan. Ya, sepertinya Hinta selalu mengawasi gerak-geriknya. Ada apa sebenarnya dengan anak Jepang ini, kadang Rashha bertanya seperti itu pada dirinya sendiri. Aneh.

Setiap hari kelas itu selalu dipenuhi dengan kegiatan yang hampir sama, belajar, mengajar dan aktivitas yang lainnya. Rashha pun yang memang sudah terbiasa dengan keadaan itu tidak banyak berkomentar, dia selalu diam di sudutnya dan mengerjakan aktivitasnya sendiri. Sampai suatu hari ia menemukan sesuatu yang membuatnya penasaran di loker teman sebangkunya yang baru itu. Sebuah kalung berbentuk topeng prajurit romawi yang berdisainkan tanda seperti silang vertikal tergeletak setengah tersembunyi di balik tumpukan buku di loker Hinata.

“Apa itu?”

Tanyanya dalam hati. Dengan masih mempertimbangkan kesopanan, Rashha tidak lalu mengambil kalung itu dan melihatnya, ia hanya memperhatikannya sebentar, berfikir dan kembali pada aktivitasnya yang tadi.

Sesampainya di rumah, Rashha merebahkan tubuh mungil nya di atas kasur-nya yang besar. Tiba-tiba ia teringat kalung Hinata tadi,

“Tunggu, sepertinya kalung itu pernah kulihat… dimana ya?”

Sambil terus berusaha mengingat, ia menyalakan laptop nya, untuk mengecek e-mail yang masuk. Ternyata ada sebuah e-mail baru yang masuk ke dalam inbox-nya.

Subjek nya mengatakan kalau itu adalah surat penting yang berasal dari ayahnya yang berada di London. Ah iya sebelumnya, Rashha adalah putri tunggal dari seorang raja di salah satu kerajaan di Inggris. Setelah membaca e-mail itu sekilas, Rashha berfikir dan sekarang ingat dimana ia pernah melihat kalung itu. Ya! Kalung itu mirip dengan kalung yang dipakai mayat seorang wanita cantik keturunan Eropa yang ia lihat beberapa tahun lalu di kastil ayahnya di Inggris. Mayat wanita yang hingga kini ia tak tahu siapa. Wanita itu mendapat hukuman mati karena telah berkhianat pada kerajaan ayahnya dan terbukti merupakan salah seorang anggota yakuza penyebab tewasnya ibu Rashha dalam sebuah kecelakaan pesawat. Tapi kenapa kalung itu ada pada Hinata???

Keesokan harinya, di kelas. Hinata yang sedang mengobrol di bangku depan menatap Rashha dengan tatapan yang aneh, tatapan orang yang seakan memiliki dendam yang sangat besar. Menyadari tatapan ganjil Hinata, Rashha lalu menoleh kearah sumber tatapan itu. Hinata yang melihat tatapan balasan Rashha, tersenyum dingin lalu melanjutkan obrolan nya.

Malam itu ayah Rashha menelepon, dengan nada khawatir ia menanyakan kabar putri tunggalnya itu. Ia meminta putrinya untuk pindah menyusul-nya ke London, karena ayahnya menganggap keadaan sudah semakin berbahaya dengan adanya surat ancaman yang datang ke kerajaannya di London. Surat itu mengatakan bahwa ia akan kehilangan satu lagi orang yang ia cintai di dunia ini dalam waktu dekat.

Rashha pun akhirnya menurut setelah berkali-kali ayahnya membujuk untuk segera menyusul-nya ke London, sore itu juga. Di sana ia mendapat pengawasan ketat, kemana pun ia pergi selalu harus ada pengawal yang mendampinginya. Ayah Rashha sendiri hari itu juga berpamitan pergi ke New York untuk menyelesaikan urusannya yang tertunda akibat adanya surat ancaman itu. Ia berpendapat, di kastil keamanan Rashha bisa lebih terjamin dengan adanya pengawal yang selalu berjaga.

Malam itu, London yang putih karena tertutup salju di bulan Desember terlihat begitu mencekam, walaupun suhu dingin yang menyebabkan membekunya sebagian besar perairan di London tidak dapat menembus dinding kastil kerajaan Wimberlton, tetap saja Rashha tak bisa terlelap. Pikirannya tentang kalung itu akhir-akhir ini selalu menghantuinya, kenapa kalung itu ada pada Hinata. Tiba-tiba ia bangkit dari tidurnya dan pikirannya seakan terulang kembali ke hari dimana ia melihat mayat wanita Eropa itu. Ya! Tidak salah lagi, wanita itu bernama Vincentia Sharon, seorang wanita anggota yakuza yang meyebabkan ibunya tewas dalam kecelakaan pesawat 10 tahun lalu. Dan kalau tidak salah, Vincentia adalah nama tengah Hinata. Jangan-jangan…

Tiba-tiba terdengar suara sirene dari arah luar, disusul dengan teriakan para pengawal kerajaan, beberapa suara ledakan senjata api pun terdengar begitu memekakkan telinga. Rashha kini benar-benar bangkit dari tempat tidurnya, ia mengintip keluar dari jendela kamarnya. Keadaan di bawah sangat tidak karuan, para pengawal berlarian dan saling berteriak penyusup. Sepertinya sekelompok yakuza telah berhasil menembus pengawalan kerajaan.

“JEBLAKK!!”

Pintu kamar Rashha tiba-tiba terbuka, beberapa pengawal datang untuk membantunya untuk bersembunyi. Dengan masih setengah terdiam, Rashha membiarkan mereka membawanya ke sebuah bungker yang berada di bawah kastil. Pengawal nya menyuruh Rashha untuk tetap diam di situ sampai keadaan aman. Hening, bungker itu terasa begitu hening, hanya terdengar beberapa suara tembakan dari kejauhan. Tiba-tiba bungker itu entah bagaimana bisa di terobos oleh salah satu yakuza, sepertinya dia tahu kalau Rashha disembunyikan di bungker itu. Tapi ketika ia masuk, tak ada siapa-siapa di dalam bungker. Rashha telah pergi sebelum yakuza itu datang.

Sekarang Rashha ada di ujung sayap kiri kastil. Di ujung sayap kiri kastil ini ada jurang yang sangat dalam. Rashha terdiam di sisi pagar yang membatasi jurang itu, ia tak tahu harus berbuat apa. Rashha hanya diam dan mendengarkan sekitarnya.

“Srek, srek, srek…”

Tiba-tiba rasha mendengar seseorang berjalan di belakangnya, suara langkah kaki menginjak salju itu terasa semakin mendekat. Lalu suara seorang perempuan terdengar dari balik punggungnya.

“Sekarang kau tak bis lari Nona Wimberlton, Aku datang untuk membalaskan dendam ibuku 10 tahun lalu”

Rashha berbalik, dia melihat sosok yang sudah dikenalnya, Hinata berdiri di depannya dengan pistol teracung ke arah nya. Malam itu Hinata terlihat begitu menyatu dengan Yakuza, berpakaian serba hitam dan memakai masker. Walaupun begitu, Rashha tahu kalau wanita itu adalah Hinata, Rashha bisa merasakannya. Ketika Hinata menarik pelatuk senjata nya, Rashha dengan sigap menendang tangan Hinata yang menggenggam pistol. Pistol itu pun ter lontar jauh dan kini mereka berhadapan satu lawan satu tanpa senjata. Perkelahian pun berlangsung seri antara mereka berdua. Rashha yang memang penyandang sabuk hitam di perkumpulan karatenya melawan Hinta yang juga menyandang sabuk hitam yang ia dapatkan ketika ia masih berusia 12 tahun.

Akhirnya Rashha bisa menyudutkan Hinata yang sekarang tidak bisa bergerak karena ia berada di ujung jurang, pijak kan kakinya mulai tidak stabil dan saat kehilangan kendali tubuhnya Hinata pun terjatuh.

“Greb!!”

Rashha mencengkeram erat tangan Hinata yang sudah terjatuh dan kini tergantung di ujung jurang itu.

“Lepas! Ku bilang lepas!! Lepaskan tanganku sekarang juga! Sekarang aku telah kalah darimu, ku akui kau memang hebat, Aku tak bisa membalaskan dendam ibuku. Sekarang Kau bisa lepaskan Aku”.    

Teriakan Hinata terdengar menggaung ganjil di jurang itu. Tapi Rashha tidak mengendurkan sedikitpun cengkeraman nya, dia tetap memegang tangan Hinata erat. Dengan semua sisa kekuatannya ia mencoba menarik Hinata kembali ke atas sampai akhirnya Hinata bisa ter selamatkan. Mereka berdua terduduk saling berhadapan tanpa saling melihat.

“Kenapa? Kenapa kau tidak membiarkan aku mati? Kenapa?? Padahal ibuku yang menyebabkan ibumu meninggal dan aku juga mencoba membunuhmu. Tapi kenapa kau menolongku?”

Suara Hinata yang terasa sedikit bergetar memecah keheningan diantara mereka berdua. Ternyata benar, Hinata adalah anak dari wanita yakuza keturunan Eropa itu hanya saja keadaan fisik Hinata lebih banyak dipengaruhi oleh gen ayahnya yang memang adalah orang Jepang.

Rashha tidak menjawab, dia tetap menunduk. Sampai akhirnya berdiri, berbalik sambil berkata,

“Aku tak tahu apa alasan manusia untuk saling bunuh, tapi untuk saling tolong… kurasa tak ada alasan yang logis, kan?”.

Hinata yang terdiam mendengar kata-kata terakhir Rashha menengadah menatap langit yang begitu bersih dihiasi bintang yang saling berkedip, ia menitikkan air mata dengan tatapan yang kosong. Mungkin ia menyesal karena telah berbuat bodoh, atau mungkin juga ia menyesal karena tidak bisa membalaskan dendam ibunya. Tapi sepertinya kemungkinan terakhir itu tidak mungkin.

Sosok Rashha yang mungil terlihat semakin menjauhi Hinata, semakin jauh dan lalu tak terlihat lagi, ditelan oleh bayangan kastil kerajaan Wimberlton yang tetap berdiri kokoh.

Bandung, 14 September 2006

Nur Asfari Dewi. XII IPA 1

Yep! pas tadi beres2 kamar, memisahkan  barang2 yang kira2 masih bisa dipakai dan yang sudah tidak layak pakai, gw menemukan print-an cerpen yang gw tulis hampir 8 tahun lalu. UWOOOOW!! gw sendiri sih kaget gw pernah nulis beginian, gw rasa ini salah satu tugas Bahasa Indonesia di kala itu. Pas gw baca, " Lumayan juga gw!" gitu pikir gw... Hha. So, I'm sharing it to you. Maap ya kalo banyak yang gak masuk akal, Hha, namanya juga cerita fiksi yang dikarang anak SMA yang gila cerita2 detektif ;p 

Hope you enjoy it. Happy reading :)

Perjalanan kemarin (Dream Land, Japan)

Konbanwa Minna-san!

Ah, pengennya sih langsung nulis rangkuman perjalanan kemarin ini dari kemarin-kemarin.... ya ntar klo kelamaan, jadinya "Perjalanan dulu" dong (*ha..)

Soalnya gak ngerti mau mulai dari mana, too much to say aja gituu (huehe :p). Klo ditanya, "Gimana Jepang?" yaaaaa... sebagai turis sih enyak bingits, gak pengen pulang malah. Tapi gak tau deh ya klo beneran tinggal, bekerja dan hidup disana.

But, well yeah that was my very first big dream that ever came true. ternyata klo di-"ngotot"-in bisa juga gw :p
Kalo dipikir2 sih ya, gw tuh orang yang kurang mimpi besar gitu, woles2 aje hidupnye. Kagak ada ambisi ambisinya barang seuprit. Hiyaaaah, orang macam apa (-____-)7

For next I should make another dreams to catch. Super seriously. I need to make another big dreams.
Like for example......eemmmm.... how about living in Japan ;)
We'll see lah ya.... but really I'm into it banget sekarang-an ini. Lagi cari berbagai cara biar bisa tinggal disana, sampe kapok, kapok deh. Biar nemu sendiri enak apa nggaknya. Biasa lah, tipe orang yang gak bisa dibilangin klo gak ngerasain jeleknya sebdiri... ibarat makan keripik pedes, gak akan percaya se-pedes-apa klo blom sampe-budeg-kepedesan~

Okaaay, intermezo cukup. mari kita mulai cerita perjalanan kemarin,
it will be a loooooooooong story, but I'll try to make it short.
So I'll just  let the pictures tell the story, he :D

Ini foto yang seolah-olah "harus banget" gitu klo bepergian naik kapal terbang :p 

What a flight banget deh, penerbangannya panjaaang bange +/- 8 jam-an kali ya... emm.. udah mulai dari kesemutan sampe gak ngerti lagi harus gimana dalem pesawat dan apesnya gw gak ngantuk sama sekali, Hiiissssshhhh~

 

Sesampainya di Haneda, setelah melewati imigrasi, ambil bagasi dll. Gw berburu toilet yang emang kepengen banget gw liat dr semenjak di Indo karna baca blog2 beberapa orang tentang toilet di Haneda. Ternyata bener sodara-sodara...... banyak beneeerrr tombolnya, segala ada tombol diangin2in pula, uuuuyeaaaah bebeh~

Tapi bikin betah sih toiletnya, bersih soalnya :3

Ini pertama liat, udah maleeeeeus banget deh buat memahaminya. banyak garis! Tapi pada akhirnya, terbiasa sih. Dan emang kereta disana sangat terorganisir. Cukup memudahkan buat gw yang buta arah. Tinggal liat peta, temuin "you are here" sama statsiun tujuan lu, abis itu liat deh garis wana apa yang ngelewatin statsiun yang lu tuju. Atau bagi yang males baca peta, lu bisa pake hyperdia.com ini ngbantu bangets!

Dan gak sampe 10 menit gw keluar dari Haneda, dihari pertama di negeri impian, gw disambut pandangan menggoda abang-abang ini....Aaaaaak *pingsan*

Hari pertama di Tokyo, setelah taruh barang di homestay, gw dan temen gw diajak si bocah jepang - yang mau berbaik hati memperkenalkan Tokyo kepada kita, pergi ke Odaiba, mungkin ini semacem tempat gaul orang jepang di Tokyo kali ya. Disana ada sclupture Gundam real size yang... ya gitu deh buat yang suka gundam kali bakalan seneng poto2 disitu. Terus kita ke tempat kayak toko2 jajanan gitu, terus ke pantai, terus liat Fuji TV dari jauh, terus kita putuskan untuk ke Tokyo Tower malemnya,

 ini another "Tokyo Tower" yang bisa diliat dari Tokyo Tower. WoUuw!

 ah ini homestay di Tokyo daerah Minami Senju, namanya Tokyo Backpackers. Kecil ya, tapi lumayan laah, homestay termurah yang bisa gw temuin di Tokyo, dari browsing2 di booking.com pas masih di Indo.

 Jam 5 subuh, menuju Tsukiji Market. Niatnya kepengen liat tuna auction, tapi berhubung kereta terpagi adanya jam 5, dan tuna auction mulainya jam 4, ya gak memungkinkan deh buat kita menghadiri auction tersebut, yang katanya fenomenal.

Karna gak bisa liat pelelangan tuna fenomenal tersebut. Semangkuk sashimi rice bowl ini juga cukup memuaskan hasrat makan ikan2an mentah, semuanya bener2 FRESH! gak ada yang ngalahin. JUARA pokonya, Tsukiji market.

 Jam 9-an nya gw janjian dengan si beruang, Finnaly we met, hehe ;)

Ini setelah dari pagi sampai petang kita muter2 pusat tokyo, dari mulai berdoa di kuil asakusa, ngeliat jalan "car free day" nya jepang, sampe duduk2 macem orang pacaran di pinggir danau di Ueno Park (cieeeeeee). Sepanjang perjalanan kita ngobrol-ketawa2, kalian mungkin bertanya-tanya gimana cara komunikasi kita berdua, yaaaa segala bahasa dikeluarin. Bahasa Jepang gw yang minim dan bahasa Inggris dia yang......oke dia gak bisa ngomong inggris. Hahaha, jadi dia ngomong sama gugel trenslet, trus diliatin ke gw terjemahannya :p dan tidak lupa berbagai bahasa tubuh dikeluarkan. Hohoho.

 Sore menuju malemnya Si beruang ber-suit lengkap itu ngajak gw makan soba (makanan paporit doi, fyi.). Ah btw, tentang suit-nya itu, hari itu dia kayak bapak2 salary-man, ber-suit lengkap trus bawa tas kerja yang isinya laptop segala rupa, jalan rendeng2an sm gw yang hari itu pake kemeja + celana pendek + stocking + converse + pake tas ransel. Singkat kata, sangat menyerupai anak sekola'an. Sehingga hari itu jikalau diantara kalian ada yang ngeliat om2 jepang jalan rendengan sama bocah indonesia yang pecicilan, mungkin itu kami (-___-)7..... But that day we're happy to meet each other <3.

 

Surganya banget deh, buat yang suka ngumpulin segala macem pernak pernik tokoh2 yang ada di pelem2 kartun. Sampe bingung apa yang mau dibeli dan dibawa ke Indo.

Dan Jepang is aaaall about temples. Banyak banget kuil, Bok! Dari yang awalnya exited banget poto2 di kuil, sampe yang jadi "aaaaah, kuil lagi kuil lagi" begitu...

 rata2 disetiap kuil ada tempat air begini, buat cuci tangan sama buat diminum sebelum berdoa.

 ini di pemakaman,

Dan FYI, kalo mau cari kucing gemuk2 di Jepang, pergilah ke pemakaman! Karna mereka pada nongkrong disitu Brooo! Mungkin bagi kucing2 sana pemakaman adalah tempat hang out yang gaul abiss didalam dunia per-kucing-an.

Mereka buntel2 kayak dijejelin kapas. Akkkkkk *pingsan* tapi mereka susaaaah banget dipegang, gak friendly gitu, sombong mentang2 kucing Jepang. "Maaf, kita beda kasta, Sist" mungkin mereka bilang gitu waktu gw mencoba berkenalan...*sigh*

Dan toko2 disekitar pemakaman tadi, nama daerahnya Yanaka, itu lucu2 bangeet. Klasik2 jepang gimana gituuu. Gw demen banget deh ngeliatin toko2nya, ya walopun gak beli, cuma moto-in doang :p

 ini juga..

 dan ini....

Dan ini gak sengaja gw temuin pas gw nyasar kepisah sama temen gw, golden sclupture of siapa itu gw gak tau~

 ini Shinjuku, yang ternyata adalah tempat "macem2" nya orang sono. Dari mulai panti pijet pake dada lah, sampe klub2 host cowo2 cantik....hmmm Japanese really...

 ini ubur2 di Sunshine Aquarium, tempatnya lovely banget buat nge-date atau rekreasi keluarga, bawa anak2 kecil <3

Itu adalah aquarium outdoor yang bentuknya ngelingker, letaknya diatas pala kita, jadi liatnya nengadah2. Isinya anjing laut yang ngiter2 ceria gitu.

Paman2 yang mangap itu gw gak kenal siapa, tapi doi berhasil bikin gw senyum simpul tiap liat dia di statsiun (ini semacem instruksi tekan tombol darurat buat di statsiun2)

The Famous Hachiko sclupture, di Shibuya, klo gak salah..... maap gw masih susah nginget daerah (-___-)

Seragam anak2 sekolahan + anak2 sekolahan disana tuh lucu2 bangeeeeet. Pengen gw culik X3

And... here we are! Ghibli's Museum, disambut oleh Totoro yang jaga tempat tiket. Buat ke museum ini agak ribet ya keretanya, agak jauh gitu ternyata dari daerah homestay gw. Tapi lumayan memuaskan rasa kepingin-berkunjung-ke-Ghibli's-museum siih

Ini sebenernya gw gak inget ada di pelem yang mana, tapi ini kayak patung yang mesti banget dipoto klo ke Ghibli's Museum... yaudah lah, biar dikira gaul....

Botol lemonade di Ghibli's ini lucu banget bentuknya, didalemnya ada dua kelereng kaca gitu, jadi klantang-klinting pas kita minum. Lemonade-nya seger, padahal cuaca pada saat itu sedang sangat berangin, walopun dingin, gw paksain beli lemonade yang dingin ini, cumak karena "botolnya lucu". Harganya cuma 200 yen, sekitar 20rbu rupiah, murah laaah bisa sekalian jadi souvenir juga :D

Pulang dari Ghibli, mampir ke Koenji, tempat yang katanya banyak toko 2nd hand stuff. Karna laper, pertama yang dicari adalah tempat makan. and that was my menu that night, ini juga gw gak inget apa nama menunya....he

Karna udah nanggung di Jepang, gak lengkap rasanya klo gak mampir ke Disney, Woooohooo!! dan ini adalah yang paling banyak nguras uang jajan gw disana, skitar 640rebu rupiah Bro! bisa bulak balik Dufan 2x ya?

Jajan yang mahal itu gak membuat gw menyesal, karna disney see lagi "Spring Time" theme gituuu. Banyaaaaak banget bunga2 kecil yang gw sukaaaaaaaaaa banget liatnya. Jadi kamera gw kebanyakan isinya foto bunga2 kecil. Hahaha, what a maniac X3

 ini juga...

 dan yang begini banyaaaaaaaaaaaaak deh *happy face*

Mochi ini gw temuin di kawasan Toy's Story. Lucuk ya :3

 sunset in Disney Sea..

Setelah seharian keliling dan antre di wahana2 jajan mahal ini ditutup dengan...... tentu saja, kembang api <3

 Gak tau knapa tapi gw seneng ngeliatin jalanan di Jepang. Banyak yang bisa diperhatiin~

 

Tempat air ini ada tulisannya "Not for drink", setelah diperhatikan, ternyata airnya dipake mandi sama burung2, jadi berminyak deh......ah.....

 bunga2 kecil lagi..... (lagi2..;p)

Ikan dikasih Oji-san yang jaga permainan tangkep ikan pake saringan semacem tisu itu looo. berhubung belum sampe semenit saringan gw udah bolong, mungkin karna kasian ngeliat mbak2 asing yang mupeng, dengan baiknya beliau ngasih gw dua ekor ikan mas unyu ini. Arigatou gozaimashita~

 little foxes di kuil~

 ARASHI, Yoo!!

 Monkey park di Arashiyama. Abang2nya bisa ngobrol sama monyetnya loo. Canggiiiih!

Motoin Mbak2 Geisha ini udah berasa wartawan yang lagi bikin liputan skandal artis, susaaah banget. Kita gak tau mereka bakalan keluar kapan dan dari mana, trus jalannya cepet2 banget. Huooh~

Selama 12 hari disana, gw ketemu om2 ini 2x, CUMA 2X. Kerja muluuuuuk :'(

Dan foto ini diambil di Haneda pas tinggal sejam lagi gw take off balik ke Indo,karena gw merasa gw bakalan kangen dan bakalan nyesel banget klo gak ada foto gw bareng si om ini.

We talked, we laughed again and when I asked him "Will we meet again?", He said "We will meet again".

and now, gw berada di hubungan yang sulit ini....hha...But no regret.... like He said, "No give up" :)

*and i never see me smile like that before, so happy <3*